49 days to go

I just got my baby center update today and I am 33 weeks. Baby is four pounds and growing. I was slightly concerned with the countdown number...49 days. Sometimes I want this child out asap and then it fades to holy crap I am not ready for this. Not ready for labor, breastfeeding, and the scariest thing--taking the kid home!
I do appreciate all the support and encouragement my family and friends have given me and deep down I know Tom and I are going to do just fine.
Throughout this pregnancy I have had crazy dreams, which I know is common, the latest is that I am not pregnant. My belly is semi-flat and I wake up very confused. It may be due to the lack of continuous sleep I have been experiencing. I just can't get comfortable, maybe it's time to sleep in a recliner...


Side note:

I happened to be flipping around the tube today and ended up watching The Doctors, a talk show with four or five docs that talked about various subjects. Today they were discussing Autism. They featured a family with four Autistic children, four out of seven! The discussion centered around causes of Autism and the newest research studies. A very interesting discussion. The couple talked about how difficult daily life is and how the care of the four Autistic is hard on the other three children. Who would argue with that?
Well, the real shocker came when the couple revealed that they are expecting again!!! What!!!???? They said they wanted to try for another "normal" and that they are concerned about who would care for the four Autistic children when they are older. I am appalled! What kind of burden does this put on the children who do not have Autism? What if this child ends up being diagnosed with Autism? How fair is this to the three "normal" children?
I understand the concern the mother and father feel about the future and thinking about who will take care of these kids when the parents are gone. How about setting up a financial plan now in order to offset care giving costs when they can no longer take care of the children. I just think that all seven, now eight, are valuable and unique and there shouldn't be expectations on children to take care of the others.
Chances are the three non-Autistic children will help and care for these children because they love their siblings. However, I believe it should be a choice not a demand from the parents.

Okay I'll get off my soap box now.

Love ya